P.M.S. -- Uh OH!

I'm feeling menstrual and this is probably the best time for me to get my frustrations out.



First off, I am sick and tired of getting criticized for one of paintings I have done that relates to feminism. I have been put down by dumbfucks that have too much testosterone to think. Don't call me a fascist, you sick chauvinistic pig. Feminism is the equality for all sexes (male, female, transgender). It is NOT about women being above men. It's to be equal. Treated equally. Don't sit there and think that everyone is equal. Men are still being treated a hell of a lot more better than women, more specifically in the working field. For example, men are still being payed more money than women when doing the exact same job. Feminism is for equality for everything. It's not just about gender, that you fail to think it only supports. I am 100% for equality for everybody and everything. Human. Animal. Black. White. Everything. Don't think that you can put me down by calling me a fascist because I have a painting supporting feminism. Being a feminist is not just for lesbians or straight women, men can be too. You want equality? You're a feminist too. Call me a fascist, you're a fascist too. Being a fascist is being right winged, and I'm far from that. Think about these things you dumbfucks.

Oh, I have more to share.


I have been feeling that my creativity and style is being absorbed and taken away from me.

"It's high school kid."

Yeah yeah, I understand, but are we really supposed to lack originality? What do we like? What do we know? I understand all of this, but I am getting exhausted from trying to be myself without anybody copying me. Some will know who I'm talking about, and some won't. It's obvious to some, and some too oblivious to understand. Okay, so there will be some similarities. High school kids in a close environment, the teachers are the shepherds while the students are the sheep. I really hate the idea of that. I go out of my way to be different from the vast majority of students. Though, it's not just style that being copied, it's music and actions that are being copied as well. I'm literally so exhausted from this.I normally don't give a shit if people share similarities with me, but they go out of their way to be just like me; they suck all the life out me. I shouldn't care about this, but when it comes to originality and personality, I get really anal about it. I don't mind being the black sheep in a flock of normal looking sheep. I aim to please myself and be myself, by being creative and original, to an extent. (It's awfully hard to be 100% original at generic white suburbia high school.) The only thing that matters is what I think of myself, and right now there are multiple copies of myself. What a not-so-great feeling.


I also want to point out that I'm so sick of stereotypes. I am not aiming to please and I am not aiming to be put in a certain type with others. I absolutely can't stand being called an indie kid or a hipster. Cliques in high school is the most absurd thing, but yet it happens. Yes, I understand. I get what I like, and I like many things. I am very open-minded. I am well rounded in character. I have a broad taste in many things. So I might wear a pair of converse on a daily basis, and I might wear my glasses once in a while, that does not pronounce me as "indie". I see many kids that will wear converse shoes, or wear glasses. Does that make them indie as well? Fucking ignorance, that's what it is.


I'm also sick of school. It's the same shit, different day. (For lack of a better phrase) I have never wanted to drop out so badly. What I should have done was take so many classes, that way I could have graduated early at the turn of the semester. Why didn't I think of that?

Oh, and people are pissing me off. Stop following me, literally. Do I not give off the hint that I want to be alone very well? Am I not clear enough when I say, "I'm not in the mood"? I hate the feeling of being smothered and controlled. I think feeling those ways are far more worse than feeling alone. There are a specific few that are doing these actions that I can't absolutely stand. I have my own mind, I will not have you control me. No, I will not do this or that. And when I do this or that, I don't need you attached to my hip. I'm independent, and I have a fear of leaches.


I have so many more frustrations, but I'm not in the mood to type them all out.




Get off my back, and give me a damn piece of chocolate.